“The pain that you create now is always some form of non-acceptance, some form of unconscious resistance to what is. On the level of thought, the resistance is some form of judgment. On the emotional level, it is some form of negativity. The intensity of the pain depends on the degree of resistance to the present moment, and this in turn depends on how strongly you are identified with your mind. The mind always seeks to deny the Now and to escape from it. In other words, the more you are identified with your mind, the more you suffer. Or you may put it like this: the more you are able to honor and accept the Now, the more you are free of pain, of suffering – and free of the egoic mind. Why does the mind habitually deny or resist the Now? Because it cannot function and remain in control without time, which is past and future, so it perceives the timeless Now as threatening. Time and mind are in fact inseparable.”—
i first read the beautiful Eckhart’s teachings exactly 3 years ago during my yoga teacher training…. i had been priming myself with RAWs Prometheus Rising and Talbot’s Holographic Universe, but Tolle was the prime star portal for me into waking up. I remember just stopping doing that summer, slipping again and again out of reptilian fear-programs and into myself and smiling gleefully at nothing and everything as I sat in the gorgeously heartbreakingly scintillating chaos of East Los Angeles, feeling what its like to be in my own presence, feeling what its like to be ok… and I knew I’d make my way to forest where I could heal myself somehow and I knew I had a mission, that I’d come here to be light and share my light….and every layer of truth rediscovered since then has been a miraculous moment and every innate artistic and healing gift rediscovered since the has been a reminder of grace, a redeemer of those pre-awakening amnesia years living as an empath deep in the grid surrounded by denseness that I almost thought could have destroyed me completely, as it tries to do to all innocent beautiful free beings - you know growing up my only real friends were horses and cats and trees and whales/dolphins in my dreams - but alas, now I know that could never be destroyed. I could never be stopped, nor can any of us be stopped. We are the light, carrying Gaia home.